I think I'm still alive...
Aug. 31st, 2008 12:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pic_murasakiI'm away for a week? Wow, that's a record...
I've wanted to go online, really. But the last time I was online, I got really depressed when a friend said something that made me loose my drive.
She's the only reason why I'm usually online and now... I don't know.
I feel so tired...
Sure I can't get online as much as I can, but I don't abandon my inspiration for work.
I did mention back then that this is my life, right?
Work is actually killing me. I want to give up, BUT I'm doing this for my family and my inspiration.
I miss my fandom, I miss drawing, I miss watching and playing... and yes, even listening to my music and singing along with it...
I'll be getting my first ever paycheck by Friday, then on the next week will be HELL.
I'll be on the floor taking calls (IF I pass the assessment), cause Teleperformance are lacking agents cause they seriously suck.
And my new friends will be leaving me cause they found a better paying call center, while I have no choice with this call center. I should stay for experience. Most call centers accepts agents if they have 1 year call center experince OR at least 2 years in college. Shit.
I've been crying a lot in the office. The worst was this friday-saturday. I was sick when I woke up, I still went to the office, got more sick on the way there, my diabetes acted up (cause I took too much of my insulin. Partly my fault), and then our trainor announced that instead of 4 weeks training, we'll have 3 weeks, cause they're lacking agents...
WTH!?
Hmm... our Trainor also said to the guys that they're gonna miss out on the pretty ladies on the floor. When he left the room for a moment-- I just had to ask my co-agents-- "We've been here for 2 weeks! Found any pretty ones yet? I know I haven't!" and most of he good-looking guys are gays.>.>;;
I don't really mind gays, I love them a lot! My closest friends at work so far are gays.
Ok, I guess that's it. 360 degree mood change after this.
~~~
Good bye PSP~!
We just returned our cousins PSP yesterday. My siblings were saying goodbye to the PSP and not to me!o_o;;
The only games we finished? flOw and ToW:RM.^^;;
PSP for 2 weeks gaming rants. ToW:RM, Irregular Hunter X, FFT, Patapon and Breath of Fire III... Possible spoilers under the cut? Ahehe...
Really random rants. You have been warned!XD
Downloaded a japanese Irregular Hunter X. HATED X's VOICE!Dx
That is definitely NOT X. Sakurai Takahiro was never X. I could go for Itoken or Show-taro but NOT Sakurai takahiro!x_x;; His voice is so seme! X sounds so seme and OOC.T_T
I actually asked for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lloyd_dunamis to get the game for me cause of Vava.>.>;; I wanna play Vava, but sadly, it seems you can only get to play after finishing X's side?T_T Wah, Sigma's castle was so hard...
Final Fantasy Tactics. Didn't go that far sadly.T_T We weren't even able to see Mustadio.D8 Waaah...
But it's so cool, I'll look forward to seriously playing it once we get our own PSP.<3
Breath of Fire III.foxalollita was the one who played it. Only got to Beyd's part.D= But hey, seeing Teepo, Rei-niichan and Ryu together again was really nice!^^<3 I missed them a lot.
This gotpictoalchemist to look for a BoF3 doujinshi.>.>;;
She found a really nice one actually.>D <3<3<3
We tried getting Vagrant Story for Yo-tan, but it's not working.T_T
What else... Patapon! Yo-tan andlloyd_dunamis got quite addicted to it and well... misses it a lot right now.^^;; The beat keeps on playing in their heads (same to me).
Too bad they weren't able to finish it.D8
The Patapon's were really adorable.<3<3<3
Tales of the World Radiant Mythology. I got stuck with my female healer named Estellise (Estelle of ToV! She's got pink hair and all, hehe) and kept on bringing the Swordian Team with me cause they're really strong.o_o;;<3<3<3 Also, I still love ToD the most.=p
Notice that Doplun and Gavada are both run by Inomata Tales charas?XD<3
In Ailily... Kratos and Refill got me giggling!*o* They're together and they're like husband and wife and OMG.<3<3<3 *ToS het OTP fangirling*
RidXChester is canon eversince Tales of Fandom.XD Wahaha.<3
I got to beat... Lloyd, Eugene, Stan, Lion, Rid... in solo.8D Yes, healers and Pikopiko hammers RULEZ!!!<3<3<3
Everyone thinks of me as a good friend before I got to finish the game.=3 Which is good. Lion and Senel's pic doesn't change though.oo;; How come Senel doesn't smile?D8 I can understand Lion, but Senel!?XD WTH?
All the Tales charas' Ending lines were ok... But the one that made me really happy was Senel's. I was all teary when he shouted Shirley's name!ToT<3 So I'm hoping for Shirley to appear in RM2?>D Please?
Kanonno said in the ending, "This seed of my world feels like mine and your child..." (or something like that) uhh... hello? My character is FEMALE?XD<3 Yuri anyone?
So I'm expecting a few charas to appear in RM2.
Shirley was mentioned to appear in the ending...
Stan and Rutee kept on HINTING having kids, so I'm expecting Kyle and Loni from the fuuture?XD
(Think. They'll meet THE Lion Magnus<3)
And to add inspiration? Dammit Namco, announce more charas already!
The mercenary who was paid to bring back the youngest Belforma child, Ricardo.
Then the person that Yuri has to take care of, Estelle (actually, I'm thinking it's either Repede or Estelle...)
Caius' partner, Rubia.D8 <3<3<3 (I'd prefer Tilkis, but I want him to be with Forest or Arria...)
So 50 Tales charas in RM2... What if the others aren't those playable charas?
What if they're... enemies?>D Hehehe...
If they're gonna put in Rokujinshou, I want Arrieta or Asch.>.>;; *random*
I am so thankful that ToWRM1 isn't like GBA ToW3! it was really terrible.Xp
it's more like GBA ToW2!<3 I loved that one better.<3<3<3
~~~
ToI and ToV sketchies.<3
Hey, I needed some time. I just scanned my new stuff and all.
In ToI, the only icon I was able to finish was Hasta...
Then, some RicaSpa and female!Spada sketchies.
Hasta Ekstermi
Stole the chibi Estelle's skin and hair color!XD OMG!!!
ust random ToI sketches.^^;;
The RicaSpa was a desperate attempt...
The rest are... female!Spada's.
I don't know if anyone recalls a certain pose of Spada's in the chapter 10 of the manga?XD
I tried drawing that as well.>.>;;
In ToV... RavenXEstelle overload!XD Though I did got to draw one Schwann and Flynn.>>;;
So.. Is Schwann's really named like that in the english?^^;;
SPOILERS under the cut. Cause I'll be ranting ToV as well...
And... Naked Estelle's... hey, what's wrong with that?>D
Rave SchwannXEstelle.8D;;
Everyone makes Schwann angsty while Raven's his happy self.^^;;
*cough*I drew this for the Blastia, hahaha.*cough*
Topless Raven is seriously spoilerish.>.>;;
I still wonder WHY Raven didn't die in the ending.o_o;;
Schwann and Flynn.
Flynn can't believe he's way taller than the older man.XD<3
Estelle... boobs...
I want her boobs to be smaller really.D8
Maybe her dress got some paddings to make her boobs look big?XD
Mmm~.<3
Schwann and a young!Estelle?>D
Shoot me for this one... 35!Schwann and 8!Estelle?
QUESTION about Schwann/Raven!!!
Did he stopped aging or he still ages after he died 10 years ago?o_o;;
Was he 25 when he died? Or was he already 35?
Maybe Schwann doesn't show himself cause he stopped aging
and his underlings will notice that he's not aging?XD
RavenXEstelle for real.^^;;
I've been quite inspired with the jp fics I just read.*o*<3<3<3
They're really short but... nice.<3
Raven's angsting inside, ahaha...
So I'm going for Uke!Estelle and Uke!Flynn now.^^;;
RavenX Flynn + Estelle?8D;;<3<3<3
And maybe AlexeiX Flynn + Estelle, cause that bastard is a perv.>.>;;
Thanks for staying and looking at my arts. *huggles everyone*
I really appreciate it...
Sheeet! Aaargh! we are running out of paper!DX
Oh yeah.... Tales of the Abyss 2nd Anothlogy Drama CD cover!!! Was released last 0822.^^;;
Can't find a better one yet.>.>;;
I've wanted to go online, really. But the last time I was online, I got really depressed when a friend said something that made me loose my drive.
She's the only reason why I'm usually online and now... I don't know.
I feel so tired...
Sure I can't get online as much as I can, but I don't abandon my inspiration for work.
I did mention back then that this is my life, right?
Work is actually killing me. I want to give up, BUT I'm doing this for my family and my inspiration.
I miss my fandom, I miss drawing, I miss watching and playing... and yes, even listening to my music and singing along with it...
I'll be getting my first ever paycheck by Friday, then on the next week will be HELL.
I'll be on the floor taking calls (IF I pass the assessment), cause Teleperformance are lacking agents cause they seriously suck.
And my new friends will be leaving me cause they found a better paying call center, while I have no choice with this call center. I should stay for experience. Most call centers accepts agents if they have 1 year call center experince OR at least 2 years in college. Shit.
I've been crying a lot in the office. The worst was this friday-saturday. I was sick when I woke up, I still went to the office, got more sick on the way there, my diabetes acted up (cause I took too much of my insulin. Partly my fault), and then our trainor announced that instead of 4 weeks training, we'll have 3 weeks, cause they're lacking agents...
WTH!?
Hmm... our Trainor also said to the guys that they're gonna miss out on the pretty ladies on the floor. When he left the room for a moment-- I just had to ask my co-agents-- "We've been here for 2 weeks! Found any pretty ones yet? I know I haven't!" and most of he good-looking guys are gays.>.>;;
I don't really mind gays, I love them a lot! My closest friends at work so far are gays.
Ok, I guess that's it. 360 degree mood change after this.
~~~
Good bye PSP~!
We just returned our cousins PSP yesterday. My siblings were saying goodbye to the PSP and not to me!o_o;;
The only games we finished? flOw and ToW:RM.^^;;
PSP for 2 weeks gaming rants. ToW:RM, Irregular Hunter X, FFT, Patapon and Breath of Fire III... Possible spoilers under the cut? Ahehe...
Really random rants. You have been warned!XD
Downloaded a japanese Irregular Hunter X. HATED X's VOICE!Dx
That is definitely NOT X. Sakurai Takahiro was never X. I could go for Itoken or Show-taro but NOT Sakurai takahiro!x_x;; His voice is so seme! X sounds so seme and OOC.T_T
I actually asked for
lloyd_dunamis to get the game for me cause of Vava.>.>;; I wanna play Vava, but sadly, it seems you can only get to play after finishing X's side?T_T Wah, Sigma's castle was so hard...Final Fantasy Tactics. Didn't go that far sadly.T_T We weren't even able to see Mustadio.D8 Waaah...
But it's so cool, I'll look forward to seriously playing it once we get our own PSP.<3
Breath of Fire III.
foxalollita was the one who played it. Only got to Beyd's part.D= But hey, seeing Teepo, Rei-niichan and Ryu together again was really nice!^^<3 I missed them a lot.This got
pictoalchemist to look for a BoF3 doujinshi.>.>;;She found a really nice one actually.>D <3<3<3
We tried getting Vagrant Story for Yo-tan, but it's not working.T_T
What else... Patapon! Yo-tan and
lloyd_dunamis got quite addicted to it and well... misses it a lot right now.^^;; The beat keeps on playing in their heads (same to me).Too bad they weren't able to finish it.D8
The Patapon's were really adorable.<3<3<3
Tales of the World Radiant Mythology. I got stuck with my female healer named Estellise (Estelle of ToV! She's got pink hair and all, hehe) and kept on bringing the Swordian Team with me cause they're really strong.o_o;;<3<3<3 Also, I still love ToD the most.=p
Notice that Doplun and Gavada are both run by Inomata Tales charas?XD<3
In Ailily... Kratos and Refill got me giggling!*o* They're together and they're like husband and wife and OMG.<3<3<3 *ToS het OTP fangirling*
RidXChester is canon eversince Tales of Fandom.XD Wahaha.<3
I got to beat... Lloyd, Eugene, Stan, Lion, Rid... in solo.8D Yes, healers and Pikopiko hammers RULEZ!!!<3<3<3
Everyone thinks of me as a good friend before I got to finish the game.=3 Which is good. Lion and Senel's pic doesn't change though.oo;; How come Senel doesn't smile?D8 I can understand Lion, but Senel!?XD WTH?
All the Tales charas' Ending lines were ok... But the one that made me really happy was Senel's. I was all teary when he shouted Shirley's name!ToT<3 So I'm hoping for Shirley to appear in RM2?>D Please?
Kanonno said in the ending, "This seed of my world feels like mine and your child..." (or something like that) uhh... hello? My character is FEMALE?XD<3 Yuri anyone?
So I'm expecting a few charas to appear in RM2.
Shirley was mentioned to appear in the ending...
Stan and Rutee kept on HINTING having kids, so I'm expecting Kyle and Loni from the fuuture?XD
(Think. They'll meet THE Lion Magnus<3)
And to add inspiration? Dammit Namco, announce more charas already!
The mercenary who was paid to bring back the youngest Belforma child, Ricardo.
Then the person that Yuri has to take care of, Estelle (actually, I'm thinking it's either Repede or Estelle...)
Caius' partner, Rubia.D8 <3<3<3 (I'd prefer Tilkis, but I want him to be with Forest or Arria...)
So 50 Tales charas in RM2... What if the others aren't those playable charas?
What if they're... enemies?>D Hehehe...
If they're gonna put in Rokujinshou, I want Arrieta or Asch.>.>;; *random*
I am so thankful that ToWRM1 isn't like GBA ToW3! it was really terrible.Xp
it's more like GBA ToW2!<3 I loved that one better.<3<3<3
~~~
ToI and ToV sketchies.<3
Hey, I needed some time. I just scanned my new stuff and all.
In ToI, the only icon I was able to finish was Hasta...
Then, some RicaSpa and female!Spada sketchies.
Hasta Ekstermi
Stole the chibi Estelle's skin and hair color!XD OMG!!!
ust random ToI sketches.^^;;
The RicaSpa was a desperate attempt...
The rest are... female!Spada's.
I don't know if anyone recalls a certain pose of Spada's in the chapter 10 of the manga?XD
I tried drawing that as well.>.>;;
In ToV... RavenXEstelle overload!XD Though I did got to draw one Schwann and Flynn.>>;;
So.. Is Schwann's really named like that in the english?^^;;
SPOILERS under the cut. Cause I'll be ranting ToV as well...
And... Naked Estelle's... hey, what's wrong with that?>D
Everyone makes Schwann angsty while Raven's his happy self.^^;;
*cough*
Topless Raven is seriously spoilerish.>.>;;
I still wonder WHY Raven didn't die in the ending.o_o;;
Schwann and Flynn.
Flynn can't believe he's way taller than the older man.XD<3
Estelle... boobs...
I want her boobs to be smaller really.D8
Maybe her dress got some paddings to make her boobs look big?XD
Mmm~.<3
Schwann and a young!Estelle?>D
QUESTION about Schwann/Raven!!!
Did he stopped aging or he still ages after he died 10 years ago?o_o;;
Was he 25 when he died? Or was he already 35?
Maybe Schwann doesn't show himself cause he stopped aging
and his underlings will notice that he's not aging?XD
RavenXEstelle for real.^^;;
I've been quite inspired with the jp fics I just read.*o*<3<3<3
They're really short but... nice.<3
So I'm going for Uke!Estelle and Uke!Flynn now.^^;;
RavenX Flynn + Estelle?8D;;<3<3<3
And maybe AlexeiX Flynn + Estelle, cause that bastard is a perv.>.>;;
Thanks for staying and looking at my arts. *huggles everyone*
I really appreciate it...
Sheeet! Aaargh! we are running out of paper!DX
Oh yeah.... Tales of the Abyss 2nd Anothlogy Drama CD cover!!! Was released last 0822.^^;;
Can't find a better one yet.>.>;;
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Date: 2008-08-31 07:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-31 09:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-31 09:03 am (UTC)Yay for PSP games! I'm downloading a bunch now too. =3 Also, ToD is your favorite? assddidfndufndufhe why nobody told me. ♥♥♥♥ But ewwww StahnxRutee take it away ewwwwwww.
Lovely sketches like always, you really have a talent, because you have your own, amazing syle. Keep it all up! My favorite is the chibi Hasta =3
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Date: 2008-08-31 09:18 am (UTC)Agh, we need our own PSP.XD I wanna play a lot...
And yes, ToD is still my most fave Tales.8D;;
Aww, I love StanXRutee and StanXLion and LionXMarian+Chal...>.>;;
I HATE anything with Philia, cause we hate her...^^;; Ahehehe...
Thank you.^^;; it's the only thing I could really do. *huggles*<3
Haha, chibi!Hasta huh?XD Thanks.<3
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Date: 2008-08-31 10:34 am (UTC)And I'm really pissed off that I missed you today. I was on all day yesterday, hoping for you to get online. Then I was forced to go to church by that stupid insensitive old man, saying that it's an obligation for me to go there. Also, if I didn't, he'll change the password to the comp and I will have lesser chance of talking to you.
Now I'm crying because well, that, and the fact that they don't understand. They just think I'm wasting my time online and talking to the same people. They think you're always on. Ugh, it's not fair.
Thank goodness you posted, because I was really worried about you. You weren't for the whole week and I was starting to get anxious... Thank you for letting us know that you're at least not seriously injured... But I'm really sorry about that... I really am...
Umm... Yeah, lol, enough with the angsting, I'm crying so hard here and if I continue that stupid old man will yell at me
Oh, the characters can be friendly towards you? Awesome sauce >w>;;
I want Spada to be friendly to me *gets shot*Argh yeah damn it, with Vesperia out, they should have more news about RM2. Epic sauce description of Ricardo! <3 I can really imagine that, and I hope they'll use your idea. How about Raven, the shady, frivolous old-looking man? And Hasta, the crazy pink-haired spear-wielding psycho?And you draw Hasta chibi omfg <3<3<3 Imma use it, okay?
Oooh that pose? I just finished coloring it >w>b I'll show you when I see you again.
Ohohoho, the parents are taller than the kid. *gets shot*
Estelle's really cute, as I've seen so far from the videos I've been watching. Yeah, I'm spoiling myself. >w>;; I'm going to bug my mom to buy me an XBOX360 and ToV for my birthday.
Anyways... I hope I can catch you again. =( I'm really sorry and take care, okay?
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Date: 2008-08-31 12:30 pm (UTC)I'm going to make a picture post for Vesperia in my LJ soon!
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Date: 2008-08-31 12:33 pm (UTC)GANBATTE!!
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Date: 2008-09-01 11:02 am (UTC)yaaay will be looking forward to seeing it.XD<3 I'll surely save it as well.<3
Wow, you're lucky you're happy with your job now. *huggles* While I have no choice.^^;; I'll probably save up and find a betetr paying job and something I like... but that'll take a long time though.x-x;;
Thank you. *huggles*
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Date: 2008-08-31 01:37 pm (UTC)I never did finish Radiant Mythology yet!... Mostly because I want to do as many quests before taking on the final boss >.> I still need to beat Eugene, Senel and Luke (and Kratos, I think?) and then take on the two and three-person battles. *gag* Fighting Stahn was so annoying x_x and haha I HATE it how the characters keep treating your character as a guy even when you're playing a girl. It's like, "Oh, thank you, Mister Evy!" and my character looks down at herself and sees boobs. >.>
dhsjkldf those ToV sketches are so cute! Especially the first one. The expressions and angles and
boobsquisheverything ♥hell yes Estelle boobsI want ToV so bad T_T I have the money for it and for a 360, but it's in my bank account and only my mother can extract money from it and she doesn't want me to get new games since college just started again >_> At this rate I'll have to wait until Christmas ;A;;;